January 2012
6 posts
Relationships
It’s a tough thing to handle isn’t it? Put in one more word - monogamous, and it makes it even tougher.
I went down to the annual CNY party held by HS tdy. N boy was almost every person I know playing for this camp there last nite. I bumped into my AXA colleague, an ex-colleague and also my ex! N a whole bunch of friends and familiar faces. Ain’t the community small with...
I waited all nite for u to be home. I worried all noon if u’re angry. I thought u’re busy and i didnt even wanna disturb u to tell u that i’m sick.
So I’m not a person who has a sweet tongue nor know how to make my partner happy just like how your ex-es used to do. Now it’s not good enough. U find me annoying n feel agitated when u talk to me. Do u expect me to...
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15 months
…. so we’ve been together for slightly over a year. its a contradicting feeling. on one hand, it feels like time went by just like that *snap*, and on the other hand, it feels like we’ve been together for a really long time.
i agree with u that seeing ching n tss reminds us of how we used to be, maintaining a long-distance relationship. its a bittersweet feeling. now u’re...
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December 2011
7 posts
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resolutions 2012
its the time of the year to recap and review on 2011 and plan for 2012…
2011 Resolutions 1. work hard, hit my targets, MORE moola!!! 2. exercise, lose weight and tone up 3. control my temper with my mum 4. read more 5. learn something new (can be a language, sport, skill, etc) 6. an act of love a day
2011 Wishlist 1. a loving n stable r/s w sk 2. happiness n good health for...
xmas in malacca
so this was the last trip for the year… to spend xmas in malacca. what a looong journey it was, literally. after i knocked off from work that day, i drove on down to pick sk up from home before proceeding to drive to malacca via the tuas checkpoint. that’s not forgetting to stop by maccas to buy some food.
the traffic was pretty smooth… i was quite happy. was estimating...
what a piece of news
so everything seemed bright and rosy… work, relationship, everything was going great! tat was till i visited the hospital yesterday.
well, in short, the doc kinda felt a lump in my pelvic area, and its not small. sooo.. i was advised to go for an ultrasound scan. several calls later, i managed to get an appt earliest this fri morning. y r gynaes always full booked?! my own gynae was booked...
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Adapting to changes
I know the current “lifestyle” sucks compared to how it was previously. Tat I can’t accompany u in the late nites, nor spend time together as n when in the afternoons. I don’t like it either n I’m sorry.
Things change. There’s pros, there’s cons. I’ll try. We gotta adapt n make it work ok?
Love U
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things to start today...
EXERCISE
DIET N LOSE WEIGHT
plan mailing list n prep the xmas cards
collect calenders n diaries, send them out w cards by nxt wk
plan xmas presents shopping list
plan biz strategy for 2012
start saving $x every month
quit smoking (again)… may tie in with sk, for NY’s day instead
nxt list to think about… resolutions for 2012!!
Bye bye Sydney
Lots of things to say… don’t know where to start. It’s been 3hrs since u got home from the airport. Slept 8hrs frm the nite before, didn’t sleep a wink during the 8hrs flight back. N now, I’m actually not tired.
8 days in Sydney, this trip was pretty tiring. Lots of packing, shifting, cleaning n drama. Of coz, not forgetting pretending to be sk’s friend and...
November 2011
4 posts
5 more days to go… Woohoooo!!
Having a life together
A discussion about a future together has brought out the fear of history repeating itself again. But baby, different people or different pairings bring out different reactions n outcomes.
Sure, I understand your apprehension. Don’t u think I worry too? Worry tat maybe if u were to see me day in day out, u’ll prolly be sick of me in no time.
But life and relationships have no...
I think I’m a very needy gf in this current relationship… I wonder if it’s a good or bad thing. Sigh
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October 2011
10 posts
Do not watch with envious eyes. Do not doubt your decisions. Look far, look long. Look at the broader scope. Do not lose focus. Do not lose heart.
Start of a new chpt
It’s been 2wks now… Stuff r starting to pile up. It’s a challenge, we learn, we grow, we advance. Not a great environment but at least they’re making steps to change. I’m pretty much enjoying it so far.
This step would probably bring me some stability. I need to plan n have the momentum to juggle both well. Need to work towards my goals in a few yrs. There r lots...
“we can never expect things to be the same, with it comes disappointment n...”
a change in me
Ur sense of neediness increases by great leaps when u’re sick. U become vulnerable, fragile, u crave for people to show u more care n concern. U become v emotional. I’ve never experienced it before until a few days back. This headache n fever has brought out a whole new side of me I myself have never seen before. I’ll took sk by surprise. And even a close friend whom I’ve...
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personality test
i was just reading eunique’s blog when i came across this personality test which she did. n knowing me, i went to do it myself!! result as follows, i think its kinda accurate….
you’re a life lover
You are very open-minded and ready to embrace new ideas and fresh ways of thinking. Despite being down-to-earth and easy-going, you have a quirky, whimsical side to you that...
Yippee...
So I gotten it today. Quite surprised actually, just went n gotten it within the day itself. Quite proud of my skills in tis area, muahahahha.
Was great that I was meeting the poly girls for dinner to celebrate jo’s bday. Coz in my heart, I was having a small celebration of my own :)
Anyway, gonna start next wk. been awhile, let’s see how it’s gonna be like. There’s...
Open up to me
U don’t like to talk about your feelings, I know. U just throw me a statement n expect me to know what to do or how to resolve it. It doesn’t work like that baby. I don’t know if it’s due to ur recent moods that made u feel this way.
Now that we’re apart, it’s gonna be different. I can’t do what I did for u in the past month to show how much I care or...
reality hits
its back to reality… a not so sweet reality. i need an adjustment, i need a change, i need a chance.
things are sweet and rosy when the 2 person are together, but when apart, things are somewhat different. the difficulties of a long-distance relationship… its just not easy. sometimes friends ask me, “how do u fight when u’re not even physically together”....
September 2011
2 posts
Sometimes the words get into u, and suddenly the emotions well up when u actually visualize it happening. That’s when u know the importance n impact of the issue…
Final trip to Sydney - 2011
I’m halfway thru my trip now. It’s been exactly 2wks. Lots of sleeping, eating, and of coz, sex, lol. Packing not only SK’s room, but even darren’s!! Tsk!!
Haven’t been following thru what I’ve planned tho. That’s to write my journal daily (I only lasted for the first 5 days I think) and to exercise (0 sessions so far).
I’ve gotten a haircut...
August 2011
9 posts
just one more week…. and i’ll be enjoying a month of love n bliss (i hope) heheheeee
i don’t know what happened exactly these days i don’t know what to expect i’m standing on my toes daily watching what i say, if not a fight we will get
maybe you’re losing your patience with me maybe you can’t tolerate anymore maybe you don’t miss me maybe you don’t love me no more
i’m standing here in the darkness not knowing where to go or what...
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Fights r common, I find that part n parcel of a relationship.
But no matter how upset I am, I eventually still love u. As much as both of us don’t think we’re in the wrong, I make it a point to give in.
Since last nite, I tried to make it as if nothing has happened. But even till tdy, it seems tat u haven’t gotten over it.
We resolve an issue by compromising. If u don’t...
Lost
Lost on this road with no destination
No lights, no signs to provide direction
Looking for a place of shelter
Lodging and food are all I’m after
Where there was once a passion for risk and adventure
Tiredness is all I can conjure
Hoping for someone who can hold my hand
Provide me some warmth in this cold land
I hope time can speed through faster
In my loved one’s arms i will...
I think I’ve totally lost it.. every aspects of it. Very upset w myself tdy. I need to find the end of the tunnel. I somehow feel like crying now, but there r no tears
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The Love of your Life
Who is the love of your life?
Do u think u’ve met the person?
Do u think your current partner is the love of your life?
Do u think even if u had one, someone else will come along n take over that place in your heart??
Do u think u r the love of your partner’s life?
How do u define someone as being the “love of your life”?
Does the person gotta be someone u’ve...
July 2011
9 posts
7 weeks of sk
7 weeks just flew by like that, its almost unbelievable. sitting at T3, waiting for sk to touch down, feeling anxious and nervous, suddenly felt like just last week.
we spent almost everyday together… we had out first “honeymoon” in tw (meaning any holiday outta SG and australia), i puked horribly again since days at dblo, we had our staycations, sk receieved a tiramisu (made by...
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I fucked up!!
I’m all pent up in there… I dont know how i feel exactly, I don’t know what to say, I don’t know what should be done. I’m just fucking lost!
as the dreaded day draws nearer, i’m starting to get a lil too emotional for my liking. i need to loosen it up, don’t be so sensitive!
does it go downhill??
what happens when one feels that the relationship has lost its sparks, and that things are starting to get monotonous? how do u gauge it? i don’t know what to do frankly, its constantly at the back of my head now. its sad to hear that your partner feels this way. what can we do about it? how do we spice it up? can things always remain as how they used to be?
Sometimes u can’t help but feel so alone n lost…
June 2011
6 posts
can’t wait to embark on our little adventure together baby….i love you.
sk.
Sometimes we just ask for it.
We ask questions, when we get answers we don’t expect… we feel hurt.
So should we ask in future??
