a change in me
Ur sense of neediness increases by great leaps when u’re sick. U become vulnerable, fragile, u crave for people to show u more care n concern. U become v emotional. I’ve never experienced it before until a few days back. This headache n fever has brought out a whole new side of me I myself have never seen before. I’ll took sk by surprise. And even a close friend whom I’ve know for more than 10yrs. When I told her tis, she was surprised n could only say “Jer, u’ve changed.” Haha, indeed, I probably have.
Geok told sk I manage my men well, but playing on the other side of the field, it doesnt seem to be that case. I just can’t seem to apply the same principles here. I become a sucker, no sense of assurance nor confidence. I get scared by the thought of it. It was probably how my ex bfs felt when they were w me, haaa. I told Geok if tis was karma. Sigh.
Anyway, I don’t wanna think so much anymore. I’m tired, sleepy n still having the fucking headache. Hurray I can sleep in tomorrow.
Nite world
